raining monsoon 241214

Today is christmas eve , it was still a raining days .
some places was flooded in my hometown .
I'm still working in boutique although it's christmas eve or christmas . (pity)
hope tmr can back earlier to pack my clothes .
two more days to go for my short vacation -----Singapore .

these two weeks I was very tired because i took one offday only .
but i still need to submit to humiliation .
because i need job .
actually she dont need so preoccupied , we're working for a same boss although there're two different shop . she is so naive .
But i dont care about it anymore , it will just spoilt my mood .
I'm just temporary work here , not work here forever .
I understand what is my job and I will do all of that , but others is not my job .
Now i only know business is war , people can do anything to earn theirs commission .
here i means some , but not all .

We can work in a good ambience ,
We can work in a good mood .
We can work together .

But if you put a long face , how your colleague feels ? how she can work well ? how she face you ?
Think before do any action .

These few days I'm really down .
My phone got problem but i where got money to spend on that ?
I need to save for everything .
I think no need but too many shirts for cny la .
waste money on clothes is not my style ....

sometimes i feels like people are ignore me , dislike me ...
i dont know why i will think like that , but Im not feeling good .
maybe I'm very sensitive and over thinking .

well, rainy day no customers .
continue watch my drama .
I'll come back soon ...

星期五，下雨天， 工作天 。 191214

哈囖，我又来咯！
好久没用华语来写部落格了。
最近一直下大雨， 雨季来了嘛！！
不知不觉在这里（cutieland ) 已经做了两个星期，一切还好。
有时候很得空， 有时候忙得吃饭也没有时间。
接下来的日子会常常更新我的部落格。

其实，我一直觉得我很幸运。
人生一路上都有贵人相助。
这次能够找到这份工也是靠我表姐帮我拿了老板的电话号码。
朋友们最近在干吗呀？
有些去当兵了， 有些去旅行， 有些和我一样在做工， 还有一些我就不知道了。
微信里变得很冷淡， 少了姐妹们的笑声和吵闹声。。。

哥哥回来已经有一个星期了。
时间过得快（一直重复）。。。
下个星期五就要回新加坡工作了。
这也代表着我要去新加坡的日子也快到了！ （开熏）
很期待啊！！！！
昨天我在网上看到一位上海做marketing的女人写的部落格。
部落格讲述做marketing的经验。
从部落格来看，做这一份工作很不容易， 很有挑战性， 每晚几乎要加班。
可是拿市场营销和银行业的来相比， 和市场营销的职员一起吃饭更有话题聊。
这是因为做银行界的通常比较严肃。
市场营销的工作范围很大， 可以到不同的业界工作。
要进市场营销的人必须有创意， 耐苦， 分析力强。
可是我不知道我有没有创意哦 。。。
打算拿这一科， 可是又怕不适合我。
问过哥哥好多遍， 到头来他问我有没有想过读 banking ， 我的算术不好而且感觉这一行好boring。
虽然成绩三月才出， 可是怕到时脑袋当机。
现在可以大胆说真替我的成绩感到担心 ！ 很怕！
无论如何， 相信一切都会及格吧!

说说我现在工作的地方。
这里的同事都好亲切。
老板娘要求我们穿得美一点， 毕竟我们在服装业工作。
得空得空就去买东西吃 ， 没顾客就可以做自己的东西。
每次开新衣服的时候， 我们就要站一整天烫衣服。
没事做的时候就看看衣服， 试试衣服。
看上的衣服可以留着先， 老板娘都有打折哦！
可是我对衣服不是很讲究， 我不会特地去买昂贵和特出的衣服。
因为我来来去去就是穿t-shirt 和短裤而已 。
我不会把钱花在衣服上。
有时候我看中的衣服， 顾客又喜欢。
我会给顾客试试看， 他们要就买了呗！
我不会介意义的。
有时候我会给模特儿换衣服， 这叫做摆设橱窗吧！
在这里工作要拿假期可不容易， 先到先得！
老板娘讲过年前不可以拿假， 可是我要去吉隆坡看医生呀!
没关系的， 我有跟chris姐姐讲好了。

前一阵子， 我join了facebook 里一个group ， 那个是有关我的病。
那一组的会员全部都是患有这种病。
虽然是美国，英国， 澳洲 的人， 可是我还是加入了。
我用了broken english 来交谈， 庆幸他们看得懂。
通过那个group ， 我得到了很多info .
我也叫哥哥帮我买了一本书，书名是I'm a Zebra ! 作家是本地人,是一名三个孩子的妈妈， 她的职业是journalist , 他也有这种病。
他在国际有一点名气。
我看完了这本书， 这本书完全讲述我这两年的感受。
如果有谁想要了解我的病， 我会叫他去读这本书。
我很佩服他的付出。

写了那么多， 好累。
不写了，下会见。

待续。。。

Teenage Life after spm .

Long time din update my blog . 

I have finished my spm exam on last week . 

Currently work at cutieland while waiting my result that will release on March . 

Hope the result won't let me dissapointed . 

Too many things to tell ~

Okay , first tell about working at cutieland . 

The job was flexible so I don't need to worry that I can't get off day to HUKM . 

And it was no tiring compare to others job . 

I have enough time to rest and do my own things . 

Who say works at boutique can't learn anything ? 

I had learnt how to iron the shirts and how to mix the shirts for customer . 

Just sometimes no customer visit the shop we'll boring . 

So , I'll working at here until April . 

After that maybe going to Taruc study . 

Today brother coming back home from singapore . 

*excited *happy 

He'll staying at Kuantan for two weeks . 

Then 26/12/14 he'll going back singapore with us ! 

Ya , my mummy and I and cousin going to singapore and celebrate Christmas too ! 

I'm looking for ours Christmas trip . 

I did not go singapore for two years d . 

I had booked hostel at Chinatown and luckily my boss allowed me to take leave . 

My sis is coming to relieve my works during that three days . 

This is because she's not going to singapore but muar . 

I have meet my primary school friends at last Wednesday . 

This is because Kar yi going to national services for two months one week. 

Thanks god that they approved my application for not going to the national services . 

I meet my primary school friends once a year , because everyone is busy with their work . 

Yesterday I went yumcha with the five sistars after finish work . 

Have much fun when chatting with them . 

Jia Wei is going to Italy for AFS programme .

Although it's just two months , but we'll miss she too . 

Time pass fast ,we'll meet again during CNY .  

Have a looks on picture taken by me :)

Badminton wif friends after exam . 

Gathering at tc . 

Selfie :D

Thankful that we can meet again . 

Girls selfie .

Take photo with the baby :) 

He's damn smart .

Yesterday mummy sent this photo to me .

Before work on the first day , photo credit to mummy . 

Feel free to makeup before work .

Yesterday night gathering at coffee gallery , star city . 

*selfie skill failed

Candid :) laugh naturally . 

Become normal ....

Say cheese :) 

Photo credit to yue sin . 

Macchiato after work . 

Live well , laugh loudly , love naturally ! 

*this pic shows that I have a small face . 

Stop here . Will be continue soon . Thanks for reading . 

Have a nice day :) 

Follow up at HUKM before spm . [ oktober ]

Long time din touch my blog d . 

Just came back from kl . 

Monday I had appointment with oncologist , Pro Fuad . 

He just said everything is under observation and he asked me to book appointment for next year MRI . Other from that , I told him that I have chosen to join the national service , but I don't want to go . So , he wrote a letter for me and that will give to Kuantan GH as a reference for my disease . After that , I got my following appointment with him at April 2015 . Then , I rushing to MRI department to have my appointment . I have to do my MRI before CNY , that's 4/2/2015 . Seriously , I hate MRI because I will have to inject while doing the scan :( 

Tuesday all day free . Morning we have our breakfast outside then we went to Tropicana city mall at afternoon . I accompanied mother and aunt go to buy something. Then , we walked back home because the house was very near to the shopping mall . After that , I did the math past year question while my two niece was not around because they sure will disturb me when they're here . At night , after my aunt and cousin have their dinner , they went back to sg.besar . 

Wednesday , today's morning my taxi driver come pick up me late . Then I have to wait for six patient. Mother and I ate our breakfast at the hospital canteen . The food was a bit spicy but cheap . After finished , we went ENT department and wait for Mr.Kong . After two hours , finally my turns . I was shocked because Mr.Kong came out and called my name . Haha , he can just call by the number through computer . First he said why long time he never see me . Lol , I just came six months ago ... Then he thought I was studying in college , I told him I am going to take my spm on next Monday . He said I can pass it with close the eyes and answer that . He asked me whether I confident to do it well or not . He continue asked how about my trial result , I just said the result is ok , not too bad but not very good yet . Haha .... He also had asked me what I'm going to study after spm . Then I replied that maybe will take course about business . His respond was that "business ? ohh that's very good! " Suddenly my mum told him that I was chosen to join the national service , but he don't know what is that ,haha . Their generation still din have the plkn things yet . Actually I want mr kong help me to write a letter , but he ask me take the form to him . I said maybe that time is too late , and if I din have go there , police will come along the house to find those who never go for national service . Mr Kong said you can run away ! Haha ... That's too funny .....  After that , he checked my neck and went to call his boss . After discuss with his boss , he told me that he can felt the tumor size was remain the same , but he have felt the other things that's swallow . He said maybe is the blood vessel and maybe is the tumor increases . So , everything have to wait until the MRI report come out then only will know what is that . He said if the tumor really increases , then he will discuss with his boss and arrange the surgery for me . I don't want do that surgery at this young age . So , have to control my diet and don't be too stress .  After that mummy said he stared at me while writing the report , I think maybe he saw why I become so chubby d , fatter than last time . Haha ... Then , I got my appointment with him after CNY , that's 11/3/2015 . I think that time spm result release d .

For now , I should be open minded to face my spm exam . 

I just wish my spm result have all credit above and not too bad like my pmr result . 

If have A that's great ! 

 God bless me for next week spm exam :) 

Veggie dinner 

At aeon big , tropicana city mall. 

Steamboat night .

:) 

With niece . 

See you all next time ! 

Bye ! 

I won't trust you anymore !

Nothing to said anymore ,

Because of someone can't go , you canceled that appointment !

Nvm . 

What I bought for you , I will finish it myself ! 

You no need worried about that ! Idiot !!!!!! 

You hurts my heart badly :( 

I cried after I saw your message . 

Because of you , I was scolded by my parents ! 

Because of you , I busy for a whole afternoon ! 

他妈的 ！ 我靠 ！ 幼稚鬼！ 

You don't know how stress am I ! 

Since she came back , he always scold me on everything . 

I rather you beats me than you scold me ! 

I don't know which day I won't tahan d ! 

Nvm , it left five more months . 

Don't said me , she and he also tak tahan with your attitude ! 

If I continue stay here, one days I will get heart-attack . 

210714 Monday with funny peeps

This morning went to hospital because have an appointment with oncology . 

We go too early and we can't meet with the doctor first , 

Because they follow the group of time . 

What to do ? 

Just wait ! 

I waited almost four hours , sleepy and tired .....

Then , my number was appearanced at the screen there , 

I went to room no.3 .

I saw a Chinese man doctor was sitting there , 

After I sat down , he started ask me "how was you ?" 

He non stop asking me what I want to study after spm ,

I said I'm still thinking .

Actually I got my way d , but I don't want he know more about that ... 

He told me that don't study doctor ! Because will study until crazy ~

I asked him , "how about nurse ?" He said not easy , always bulled by others and do something that peeps don't want to do . This job need more patience .....

Ok lo ~ 

He also said that accountant won't get high salary lar (o.o) 

He said I can just find a rich guy and marry with him . (Lol) 

He asked me I have go to dental there and check my teeth or nt , but I said one times only ......

He used his phone and google search a picture for me , he said that will happened if I dint go to the dental there . (X.x)

After that , Pro Fuad came in and he looks at me and said " is that neuroendrocrine girl from Kuantan ?" I said "yes" . He ask I have go back UM and meet with Dr. wan ariffin or not , I said nope :( 

Then he came and check my neck , he said everything was ok . 

The next appointment will be at October , before my spm ...

Throwback to Saturday , that day I came to kl . 

That night we went mutiara kompleks to meet with the famous Chinese traditional doctor , 

Then we went to setapak and have our dinner . There was so many car there ....

We ate until almost vomit le ..... 

Have fun :) 

Sunday morning , brother brought us go to eat handmade pull mee.

After that we went to paradigm mall to shopping . 

Tee hong brother want to buy jogging track mechine . 

We went back home after two hours ... 

Now I'm going back to Kuantan , 

Tomorrow still have school .... 

Tired .......

With jie Xi nephew . 

Don't be naughty ! 

040714 life in essay .

Everytime when teacher ask me to write an essay or during exam , 

I can't have any idea with the essay . 

Everytime I wrote incident that happened in my life in my essay . 

I missed the past , I am looking toward my future .

I just can continue my life with doing that . 

And I am not sure how much the marks teacher will give me , 

But at least I did my best . 

Counting down to four months . 

I realized that we always love to finish the work in the last minutes .

Is that we have not enough work out ? 

But I think that was lazy . Haha ....

My study group going to start again after stopped for a month . 

We study hard and going to work smart after this . 

We need some things to motivate us . 

Everyone has their own target . 

Example , one of my friends will go travel to Japan with her sis if she get straight A in SPM . 

One of my friends will get a new phone from her parents if she get straight A too . 

For me , I just wish my result can apply the scholarship to continue my studies . 

But that's not enough to motivate me :( 

Hmm.... 

I must think other way ....

How long I never go out yumcha with friends ? 

How long I never go shopping with friends and family ? 

I forgot about this all entertainment :/ 

Whatever , after this still have many chances what ..... 

Haha ... 

TGIF . 

270614 going to end of June

Today mummy went to took my report cards at school , 

And my teacher just told my mum that I was shy to ask question to the teacher . 

Haha , she said my work out still not enough , have to be more hard working :) 

Then , I ask my mum to let me drive because I scare I will forget how to drive after long time . 

My mother was very calm but I was very nervous , 

I told her that I felt nervous because I seldom drive . 

I'm glad to see my mum was so relaxed when sat beside me . 

Tomorrow morning I going to fetch Kar yi go jogging and we going to take photo for moral folio . 

Hope my friends will keep calm as my mum . 

Haha .... 

One more month to go then I'm sitting for my trial exam .

But now we still no mood to start study for the exam .

Now the time is for all of the folio , teacher want us to pass up before July or end of the July ! 

Rushing :( 

A week before mummy bring me to the big bad wolf book sale ! 

Mummy bought a set of vampires novel for me ! Hehe ! 

I will read it after exam :) 

Thanks mum . 

Three weeks more I'm going to meet my oncology doctor again , 

Hope everything will be fine :) 

I don't know why now days I can't speak properly . 

Example , my pronunciation was not clear when I'm speaking English . 

I can't roll my tongue as well as , I felt uncomfortable with it ! 

Feel like want to cut down my tongue . ( angry) 

This cause me don't like to talk to others . 

Hope my friends can understand me . 

As usual as my face was looks "chubby " when I woke up from sleep .

Haizz , I try to accept this side effect , but I can't ! 

Some more I don't know what trouble anymore that will happen on me :( 

Dr kong ask me to check the size of the tumor myself , but I don't feel like any difference , only doctor know how to determine the size of the tumor .

For me , now I should study hard and achieve good academic to apply scholarship . Because I don't want my brother feel so stress to defray me on studies . I know I should not eat all unhealthy food , but...... 

I will try to be a vegetarian :) . 

Few days ago , my father still bought many durians for us . 

I love it so much ! 

Just once a year (ok ?) 

Tonight was raining heavily , time to study . 

Although I will be a panda , but if I get good result , I will sacrifice on it . 

Before that , let you see some photo that we had taken when Hari Koperasi  .

B&W

Muacks ! 

Peace ! 

What ka ying looking ? 

My chubby face :) 

11of us ! Ps: fw still sleeping at house . XD 

Shi yin was absent . 

Everything is about selfie :) 

That day went to book sale :) 

Bye . 

 

050614 2nd day of malacca trip

Late post 

Sayang-sayang Youth Hostel  @ riverside - jonker walk - The Stadthuys - St Paul Hill - A Famosa - Dataran Pahlawan - Mahkota Parade - Chung Wah chicken rice ball - Capitol satay celup . 

That's not easy to be a backpack traveller ,

This 3days 2nights , we not taking taxi and we took town bus and walking . 

This is the first time I organise a trip for my family (sister and mummy ) .

When we tired , we rest . 

When we saw something smell good , we eat . 

We no need to rush here , rush there . 

We just walk around here . 

I loves to eat Baba nyonya food . 

I will be back soon .

Later going to jb ! 

The malacca river is behind my hostel . 

Back view of my hostel . 

Early in the morning ! 

Wall art 

Baba nyonya and some Portuguese wall art 

Me and mummy 

Me and mummy 

My beautiful mummy 

Mummy and sis ....

I love this photo so much ! 

Photo taken by mummy . 

Me"mummy ! Your hand !" 

Haha ..

Omo , my sis .... ==! 

A Famosa 

Boom !!! 

Hehe ..,

 Selfie at A Famosa 

Merdeka ! Let us jump ! 

Nadeje at mahkota parade .

Nice decoration here 

Old train

Infront of San su gong .

Lunch here . 

Mummy waiting they serve the food . 

Dinner here .

Long queue outside the shop . 

Selfie with mummy when long queue -ing . 

When we walking to our hostel . 

It's kampung hulu road . 

Can u see my hostel ? Hehe ... 

That's all . 

Thank you for your visit !