Hospital Day

It's friday .
Went hospital meet with Doctor Kong .
Doctor Kong explain the progress of operation and how was my situation .
Doctor said they will not cut my vein and my nerves .
But , what can they do for me is clean the tumor , but can't clean all .
Because my tumor grow bigger .
It's bigger until want reach my brain .
So , Doctor said must do the surgery as fast as .
After the operation , i will rest for one month .
Then , doctor will plan to do radioactive and chemotherapy for me .
Doctor said it will be a difficult journey for me .
He said now i was a active teenager , but after do the radioactive and chemotherapy ,
I may be a tired teenager .

Now , what my cousin , my mother and me worry is if i do that operation , the cancer cell may be separate  to other place .
We had ask doctor , and his answer is maybe .

This operation may be a simple surgery .
but still got a little bit worries and nervous .
Now i just want to hold my live ,
I don't care i will be a handicapped .

What can i do is listen to doctor ,
and pray for myself .

昨晚， 表哥（智勇）建议我暂时不要去动手术。
单靠吃离子丐来去除我身上的酸性，
还有念经求佛。
一个月后， 再去检查看我的肿瘤有什么变化。。
可是， 医生认为没有必要延后动手术。
医生怕如果延迟的话， 怕我的肿瘤会长大然后压到大脑的神经线。
我知道表哥的建议有道理。
可是， 我不敢冒险延后一个月。
可是， 除了做手术和做化疗和电疗， 我也要靠自己。
念佛经， 做食疗， 和保持乐观的心情。
至于以后会不会扩散， 谁也不知道。

好了， 不写了。。。

Happy Wesak Day ! 24/5/2013

Happy Wesak Day !

This morning went temple to pray .

It’s seems so many people went temple today .

Before went temple , I went my aunt ‘s house visit my nephew , Boon Kit .

He is a naughty boy , but he is cute .

I also meet with my cousin sister there .

She said last week she went to do aerobic .

It’s very funny and good for health .

I mind to do that after this .

I want my mummy accompany me go do this together !

Last night , my cousin sister at kl have called me .

She said doctor have called her and she told I’m going to do my surgery on 10/6.

But I need to stay at hospital for 4 days before surgery .

Sure very boring during that 4 days .

Holiday start , and it will end after 2 weeks .

My sister , HuiChin visit Melacca with her friends .

So sad I can’t follow her go together .

I hope one days I can go there with my family 

Next Tuesday , my sister is coming back home ^^

Everyone go travel except me , stay at house and waiting doctor call …

Doctor said will arrange another date for me , to meet with him before the surgery .

My cousin sister from Singapore mind to meet with the doctor with me .

She say she want know more about my situation .

I’m very thankful because I have a cousin like her .

Besides , thanks my cousin , family , friends , teacher and fb friends …

Thanks for support me !

I will fighting and do my best !

I know in future road may be a difficult way .

But , I have to handle this all .

Very thanks my mummy ,

Because of me , she have to accompany me at hospital every night .

Because of me , she can’t eat properly at hospital .

Because of me , she delay her work and go kl with me .

Because of me , she used up her saving money .

Because of me , she can’t sleep well at hospital .

Because of me , she have did many many things for me …

Now , I ‘m worry about the cost of surgery and many many …

Because I not stay at government hospital , it’s half government half private .

And the hospital didn’t accept my school letter .

So , I have to pay for everything although the cost is lower than private hospital .

But , from January until now , I had done many test.

It’s took many money , and I worry about future .

After the surgery , I still need to go check-up , do test and many thing .

Now my situation , I can’t go out work as part- time .

Now , I also not going school because I take mc for 1 month .

So , I mind to do some handcraft to sell …

But don’t know it will success or not . 

Anyway , u never try u never know  :) 

These few days busy with my study . 

I have changed my class to art class .

I not taking account anymore .

I taking economy , art , ert and others ..

Because in my future way , I can't speak well . 

So I will choose to learn fashion design .

Other way , i also can learn sewing from mummy . 

I think one day i can do it ! 

thanks my Tee Hong brother advise me to do this . 

Before me also blur with my future , don't know what to do in my future . 

After chat with my brother , i think many things that i can do ! 

So , never give up and be strong ! 

Let's fighting !!!